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it's saturday morning and i am working. with kiel right now in mitc monitoring and evaluating the cascades of our ambassadors. will go to la salle in a while. hehe, road trip na naman. we did manila a couple of days ago and visited san beda and letran. it's been fun so far pero aksaya sa gas...ek.

haven't been a blog person as of late...haven't had a lot of time to just bum around and reflect. but i guess i'm due a post or two :)

so much has been going on in my life these past few months. work has been hectic, but manageable and fun. family is good, enjoying my little niece and watching her slowly grow bigger and bigger. love...well let's just say, finally there is something (or someone??) in that department. overall, i'm healthy, happy and well. :)

haaay, everyone's been so supportive with my present situation. about time that i get to have a story of my own?? :) i so love my friends. in a matter of hours, it'll be a month since it all started. that moment of empowerment, courage and kawalang-hiyaan..hehe. up to now, i can't believe that i took charge of the situation, and got what i want. 30 days later, still no regrets.

i'll try to continue this in a while. need to visit another room. hehe..baka sa la salle ko na to ituloy :)

it's been almost five months since i last posted a message, or even visited this site. i guess the main reason why i started this blog in the first place no longer exists. no more bumming around and trying to figure out what to do today. i'm currently in miriam college's computer lab, facilitating our last set of training for a program i'm handling for microsoft (FSAP). since this is a technical training (about asp.net...what the hell?) i'm bored senseless. the people around me speak a different kind of language (computer geeks anyone?) good thing, their lab is connected to the internet or i'd have been sleeping my ass off (like i phoenix one). so to ward off the drowsiness caused by not knowing what the hell the trainer is talking about and drinking a very icky cough syrup, i've been looking into my friendster and blog. surprise, surprise, very few of my blog friend's have been updating their blog content. i guess we're all immersed in our working lives and have very little time to surf the net and put our two cents worth.

still have about 4 or 5 hours to spare here. tick. tock. tick. tock. just want to go home and sleep. even if i'm already recovering from the nasty flu i had last week, i still don't feel like interacting with people. the smiles, the conversations, the small talk. i'm just...not in the mood for it right now. and my great boss just left me to have lunch out.

my feet are killing me. why do i always have to wear heels? to hell with corporate attire. give me casual clothes anytime.

can't wait for the weekend. i'm going out of town with high school friends. the long overdue outing. it was postponed last weekend becasue i was sick and i was supposed to bring the car. hopefully no mishaps this week.

ooh...lunch time. will coem back again later. don't want anyone reading this in this lab.

it's a new year...and i promised myself i'd start anew...i'm tired of lazing around the house without an idea on what i'd like to do with my life...i will not permit myself to be jobless come march, where i'll be competing with another batch of fresh graduates. so i have to get off my lazy ass and find myself a job that would at least give me experience and take a step towards discovering what i really want to do. that's my new year's resolution...

well it seems that i'd be fulfilling my resolution early...very early. i had an interview with a training/ development company (a small one) last friday. i did part time work for the company last year and it seems that i have a chance of working there full-time. i have to give my decision tomorrow. i had to discuss it with my parents because there's a slight hitch with the job offer. the job is very,very good experience and exposure wise...and since i've already worked with the company before, i know that it could be lots of fun and difficult too. and i'm all for that. the only problem is that it's not very financially rewarding. as i've said, it's just a small company...but i'm not having reservations because i want loads of money right away. it's just that when i estimated my expenses (if i take the job), versus my income, then i'd would be in between breaking even and being in debt with my parents. hahaha...just when i thought i'd be making my own moolah...

anyway, tomorrow's d-day and i'm inclined to take it...my mom said that if i really scrimped and sacrifice some stuff, then i might just be able to make it work. and they're still willing to feed me, so that's one less thing to worry about...hahaha...anyway, it's a challenge isnt' it? would be a nice change from being safe and logical.

i don't know what it is this year but i just don't feel the christmas spirit.

all the things around me are very colorful and christmas-y but i just can't feel the excitement and joy that usually engulfs me whenever this season is upon us. (ok, one exception...i do feel it whenever i drink peppermint mocha from starbucks..weird, noh?)

maybe it's because i'm not in school anymore and i miss the rush that comes with xmas vacation...

maybe it's because this year, i haven't participated in the planning of our annual high school xmas party...

maybe it's because for the very first time, i don't have my sister with me in our room and i miss the times when we'd talk about the gifts we'd be giving our friends and the parties we go to every year...

whatever the reason is...i hope i get over it soon...preferably before christmas... :p

I think I’ve hit an all time low.

For lack of anything to do, I have been reduced to stamp collecting.

Yes, my friends, stamp collecting.

Last week, my mom gave me a stamp album and a paper bag full of old cards and letters. And since I have all this free time, it wouldn’t hurt to organize it for her. So I did. It was kind of fun going through all of the stuff she gave me. Old cards from when my dad was working abroad, postcards form different parts of the world, travel brochures and all kinds of souvenirs. Of course I had to cut out the stamps, soak it in water and let it dry so that it could go into the album. The other stuff I saved so that I could make a scrapbook of all the places my family has been in before.

When I finished I couldn’t believe haw many stamps we had collected over the years. There were stamps from here, Canada, U.S., Nigeria, Italy, Australia, India, Liberia, Somalia, and other African countries. You see, before I was born, my dad worked abroad as an engineer, while my mom worked for the Philippine ambassador in Nigeria. My sister even studied there for two years. After that my dad got transferred to New Jersey. The other stamps were from relatives and friends from all around. I thought it was pretty cool after I’ve finished.

This is the effect of unemployment on me.

There is still the collection of bills and coins from different countries that I haven’t even started on.

Wish me luck on my job interview this Friday.

The name Rosalie creates the urge to be self-expressive and philosophical, but we point out that it limits self-expression and friendly congeniality creating loneliness. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the liver, bloodstream, heart, lungs and bronchial area.

The name of Rosalie has given you an appreciation for many beautiful and refined aspects of life--music and art, literature, drama--and the outdoors, where you find much peace and relaxation, but it creates a far too sensitive nature. You sense and feel much that you do not understand, and sometimes you are alarmed at your thoughts and wonder about their origin. You rarely experience the tranquility that comes with stability of thinking or emotional control.

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